I am addicted to food. Seriously. I love to bake, cook and most importantly, eat. I am a second year law student and after getting engaged this past December, I have decided to restart the Ideal Protein Program.
The first time that I started Ideal Protein, I was a senior in college. After gaining 50 pounds in undergrad, I decided it was time to change. I decided to take control of my life and my body.
I learned the hard way that I use eating to emotionally comfort myself. My junior year was awful. I lived with a girl who was disrespectful of my space and caused major conflict and tension in my apartment. I found myself not ever wanting to be at the apartment alone or even come out of my room. After classes I would go to McDonalds, Chipotle, Cane's or any fast food restaurant to get food for the night. I would bring the food home, go directly in my room eat. I would literally barracade myself behind the four walls of my bedroom. I was overweight, unhappy, and my grades were slipping.
|With some friends junior year...I'm on the right.|
I would drive three hours home almost every weekend and my parents started noticing my weight gain. My mom would make subtle comments about the weight I had put on. I have always struggled with weight loss and dieting, but she knew that this was an all time low for me. She knew I didn't feel good about myself at my current state. Parents are always right.
|Boyfriend and I fat and "happy" on my 21st birthday, April 2013|
I went abroad to Spain the summer after my hellacious junior year and gained even more weight. I was enjoying eating fried tapas and drinking Sangria. I ignored how unhappy I was with how I looked because I didn't want that to ruin my trip. In Madrid after a night of going out with my friends, a man in the street commented on how we all looked. My friends he said were "bella," but to me, he pointed and said, "gorda." I tried to laugh it off, but that comment really hurt.
|Heaviest Weight. Trying to hide behind my bag|
|Boyfriend after losing over 50 pounds and me still fat in November 2013|
|Weekend before starting Ideal Protein|
|The first time I noticed the difference in my weight! Left: November 2013, Right: February 2014 (1 month on Ideal Protein)|
|Left: December 2013, Right: March 2014|
I was reluctant at first, but after finding out there is a new Ideal Protein clinic near me, I finally decided it's time to take control of my life again. I don't want my weight to be a factor in what dress I choose. I don't want to look back on wedding and engagement pictures with regret. I don't want to feel uncomfortable on the best day of my life. I am restarting the diet for me, my future husband, my future kids, and my future life.
While I am looking forward to success on Ideal Protein again, but restarting something that you feel like you failed at is hard. I am not going to focus on what got me to where I am today, but focus on little successes along the way. I am going to be my best self on my wedding day and I am going to reach my goal weight.
I restarted Ideal Protein on January 19, 2016. My starting weight was 165.8. My goal weight is 125. I hope this blog inspires you to never give up on your goals and not to be afraid to start over.